no words

Literally. 

There have been no words. 

Last week, in a month where we are financially truly struggling, my computer died. Without warning. 

do they ever warn you? 

And I was first slightly optimistic (you could also call that denial)

Tried all the patient waiting tricks....no good. 

Called my trust wonderful apple guy

 he's who I call for anything/everything. 

(I cautiously don't like to bug him with incessant bombardment of inquiries but this was big)

and for the record, he never acts like I bug him, he's so patient.

He didn't sound as optimistic...in fact he said

"Hmmmm"

not good 

I sobbed. and sobbed. 

"Not this month" I cried! 

not when so many other things are going wrong. 

not my precious connection with the world and with my blogs and pictures and with ....lalalalala.

2 days later, with my plea to save my photos PLEASE. 

see...I had had the thought to back up only the week before, using TimeMachine. 

only, I didn't think it had worked. and I hadn't wanted to bug him, by asking if I had done it wrong....

Hmmmm.

He called, with good and bad news.

Photos saved

"thank you Jesus...and Bob"

but my machine was done.

:(

and gone were my fonts, my bookmarks, my downloads

but still I was thankful.

then, turns out when I handed over my hard drive

I HAD BACKED UP!!!!

funny thing is, I had spend several days mourning

see you can't check your back up without a computer..

:(

I was ever so thankful..but still a bit sad. 

He came by with my "stuff"

(he actually handed me my old hard drive! ha!)

I am grateful my photos are saved.

I am thankful for friends that rescued me by offering to let me use theres. 

I am content in knowing if all else failed

[which it didn't]

after a week of weariness 

finding things to be grateful for when all I wanted to do was throw a pity party worked. 

There are no words.